yo!yo! i sed it twice u got problem wit dat?!haha this is wht i learn when i hang out with my cousins.told ya they were crazee.LOL.nothing much happen lately but ive been trying to catch-up on my studies,SPM is near tho.a few months ago sha told me secrets tht she wud never tell anyone else especially her best enemy,dila.its kinda immature so i go on n tell dila coz i think eventhough i hv a gang of 7,i dont think they layan me tht nice,i think dila serves me better than they do,she listens.abt the secret thing its not tht big but wtv.dont wanna b frens with ppl who dont layan me.im not tht desperate
ive been a lil busy with tuition,everytime i study,i cant focus,its like my brain is leaking every word ive read,but mayb its just a phase,ill get through it.cant wait till i finish my exams n im not really into boys right now,like the bf-gf crapp.malas nak layan.im into this photographer,sueannajoe.right now im like errmm… not being serious,like dontknowdontcareje.like so happy tht i dont care abt some other important things like trial,in 2 days time i hv a paper but still cant be bothered.
ill write more later,nothing much to say now eventhough its been a long time since i updated this thing.
eventho this time(hols) is not so productive,i mean not productive……..at all.i went on a family trip at sepang,had lots of fun n foods n anjangs,i think thts the only thing thts productive this hols.i dont hv much things to say anyway.wish this hols cud be more special but wtv.something sweet i found on my mail:
A Real Boyfriend
Don’t care if you have a boyfriend or friend right now…. I dont
care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson…..just read this, it will
make a difference……..if only everyone could see this and understand it….
When she stares at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb butt cuz she thinks shes stronger than you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]
When she starts cursing at you tryin to act all tuff
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she’s quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong ]
When she ignores you
[ Give her your attention ]
When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying
[Just hold her and dont say a word ]
When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she’s scared
[ Protect her ]
When she steals your favorite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]
When she says that she likes you
[SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN YOU COULD UNDERSTAND!!!]
When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]
When she bumps into you;
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]
When she says it’s over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]
When she reposts this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]
- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.
- When she’s mad hug her tight and don’t let go
- When she says she’s ok dont believe it, talk with her
- because 10 yrs later she’ll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Treat her like she’s all that matters to you.
- Stay up all night with her when she’s sick.
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it’s
stupid.
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes.
- When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her.
- Let her know she’s important.
- Kiss her in the rain.
- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is;
life is dull but in enjoyin it.last night i talked to iza abt school n shit.she told me tht s_____ actually admit tht she lied to her pet sister abt this v______ n kevin crap.shes so full of herself,she cannot go around n lie 2 amira like tht but its alrd happen so iza hv fix it now.so its done.theres this girl a_____,we use to be quite close,but now shes kinda keeping a distance from me,i mean she dont really wanna talk to me,i dont know wht did i do wrong,well shes been absent 4 a while but when she came bk shes avoiding me.i hv the feelings tht says i did something wrong,something tht doesnt suit her,something tht makes her hate me.n one time when i called her,she sed sorry i hv something important to do.thts wht i thought shes gonna say,but when i ask i____ she sed mayb she really do hv something better to do.i think right now im gonna give her some space or whtv,till she speaks to me again.
aliaa n ppl like f____ n iza told me tht i think too much.i guess they r right,coz when i think abt it all i think abt is wht ppl think of me,well thts just life,cant avoid it.some1 told me tht i dont hv a life,but i dont really care abt it coz as long as i hv aliaa,mariam,iza,i____ with me, im happy.wht aliaa sed last monday made me feel so semangat.before tht i feel so lost,so miserable,like im such a big fat loser in whole wide world n stuff n then along came aliaa.haha.she always make me laugh n cheer me up,shes such a good cousin.shes the best.ok la i hv to stop here nnt kembang lebih2 lak aliaa.at tht point i knew i made mistake,im going to make it right this time.thx al.
z__:i___wht do u find if you look for the word ‘idiot’ in the dictionary?
i___:the definition of the word ‘idiot’
z___:no!!the pic of s____
hahah.we laugh our ass off tht time coz the girl were talking abt is right in front of us but shes not listening n we use diff name.tht girl such an idiot.shes a big fat hot-tempered beyotch!!
i know its been a long time since i updated my blog.ive been busy lately,but idk whts keeping me busy,stupid rite?but im having my spm so i guess thats wht keepin me busy.i have exams too.i skipped school today,yesterday ws my last paper,when i read the questions i ws like wtf?!!!damn hard.i tried to remember hw to do the account thing i ended up with sleeping on my answer sheets n teacher ws like r u ok ifa?.haha.we hv to sit for the paper for like 2 and a half hours.im not feeling good that time,thts why i slept.after that mase balik theres this hot chinese guy bumped into me n i ws forced to say sorry n i ws like excuse me?!!!wth man!!.anyway his gf came n sed sorry 4 him n i asked my adila whts up with tht guy?so psycho!.she sed hes having a hard time,his bro got involved in a fight n he hv 2 come n get him coz hes injured.u got issues with him y take it out on me?!!aiyo i pulak yg kene,nasib baik la good looking klau x….u dont wanna know.grrr.and…owh,,,i feel so sorry 4 i_____coz she have to call it over with v_______
i bought this book,its called ways to live forever,its abt this 11 yr-old boy, hes fighting lukaemia n he always ask the kind of questions tht nobody answer like:
how do you know tht you have died?
why does god make kids ill?
wht would happen if someone wasnt really dead but ppl thought they were?would they get buried alive?
does it hurt to die?wht is dying?
wht does a dead person looks like?or feel like?
i like this book coz this particular boy dont really care abt dying,he wants to grant his own wish before he dies n spend time with his fren,felix,whos fighting cancer too,like him.
ive just woke up.i hd a long day yesterday.my dad is being unfair!!he let my sis go to the movies with her beetches but i x boleh,then she broke my ipod n she gets a new 1.the world is just not fair i guess.im so tired of the game tht ive been in since jan,i feel like going 2 a place where no1 knows me so tht i can do anything i want,but in this life the more u run from it the closer it will come 2 u.i need 2 find a new bf.so bosan.i really miss my cousins,aliaa n mariam, craziest ppl i ever met n of course i miss mama.i cried myself 2 sleep last nite,haih pressure la 2 much things going on.sometimes i wish nvr hd those losers i hd in my life so tht there will no emotional feelings but,wht’s life without challenges rite?
eventho im upset abt wht happen all week.im still happy tht my dad bought me a new phone,its motorola L6,eventho its second hand im still happy coz it satisfy me.we’re going 2 sungai congkak 4 hols this weekend,the best part is my dads fren is comin with us with his family(uncle shahrul)he rocks.he gave me my sis n my mama a black pearl n a white stone frem deep down the sea.its a locket.he got a lot of money,he bought this handycam just 4 this hols,n he gave my dad RM200 2 buy some food 4 the bbq.haha.hes cool
p/s:u cant solve probs using ur tears,n in this life shit happens,so if u cry 2 much think properly r ur tears r goin 2 bring things bk like normal?obviously its a NO.so just chill n look 4 solutionsLOL.
my lil sis freakin smash my fuckin ipod!!!aaarrrrgggghhh i love tht ipod,now i hv 2 fix it with my own money.no 1 is goin 2 touch tht freakin ipod,not till its fixed.i ws so pissed coz i didnt do anything 2 her,she fight with my bro bcoz of tht drink,throw things on the floor,if u nk baling so go baling some other stuff la not my RM900 iPOD u idiot!otak letak kat lutut ke x pakai otak langsung!!otak 2 dh x berfungsi lg dh dlm kegilaan neslo kau 2.
i didnt know the ipod ws broken till today.im not the 1 who use the ipod lately coz im not i the mood 2 use it.until today i saw the ipos near the cpu n if doesnlt look hw i t used 2,by then i discovered tht tht thing is broken.tht ipod tahan lasak tau,tht mean she smashed it real hard,im so gonna smash her head real hard.but to think tht today is her bday n since my ws dad 2 bz 2 buy her a cake i really dont want 2 ruin her day.im not gonna marah her….not yet…..im gonna wait till its not her bday,which is anytime soon
i ws so pissd tht my body is shking….so i told fahim abt my ipod n the fight.i cant help it,ive got 2 let it go.the along gave her somethin he sed tht its from anjang obviously its a present,it ws a purple samsung mp3(T10)it really gets on my nerve tht she get tht thing,it ws better than my ipod.n she asked me 2 2 help her with it.somehow fahim told her tht she baling my ipod but he didnt tell her tht,tht thing is alrd broken.then boleh lg die ask me bile pulak iza baling ur ipod?aaarrrggghhhh….hw cud she not remember she did tht
(p/s:i still hv feelings u know so top hurting me!!)
well.my face got better eventho its still looks red,i dont care.iza invited me to a sleepover.its just a freakin sleepover,its not like im going 2 hv sex or somethin,i asked my dad if i can go to the sleepover,n he sed yes(a few days b4 the sleepover),then the night that i asked him 2 take me to the sleepover he sed tht he did not agree with t.he sed ask mama n if she say yes ill take u there.well,i can tell tht my mom wud say no.
so,i called her,n i ws right,she gave me a quick brush up n sed bye2.she sed u cannot go cozu hv bro’s.lil sis,n a hse 2 take care of.at that moment i ws thinkin firstly,its hols,gimme a break!,secondly,my bros n lil sis r all grown up,they can take hell of a good care of themselves n finally if so tell me softly la cant u?.i hv feelins 2 u know.
the same night,i asked my dad if the next day i can go out to the movies WITH my bro,its safe 2 b with him n tht place is like 3km from home,its not tht far.the convo ws something like:
me:can i go to the movies tmr?ill go with fahim or something.we’ll take the bus.
dad:(lookin mad)when did i say u can go?
me:tht’s y im askin if i can go?(grrr)
dad:NO!!
hw wud u feel if ur request ws rejected by the the word no said straight face.OUCH!!.thh really hurts.i ws askin him properly.i wasnt trynna provoke him.i hv feelings 2 u know
